Today, it feels really vulnerable and personal to share my story with you through my blog about my journey to connect with my body.
I want to share my journey with my cycle, hormonal imbalance, and weight gain.
Let’s start from the beginning with some context:
My Early Experience with Periods:
I was just 10 years old when I had my first period, a memory as vivid as yesterday.
I was at my nana’s place, and she had improvised something for me until my mum arrived.
It wasn’t an ideal experience, to be honest.
I love my mum and Nana dearly, but their reactions were less than ideal.
My mum asked if I had cut myself, and my nana implied that we shouldn’t discuss it.
My initial exposure to womanhood was steeped in shame, secrecy, and homemade period pads.
Traumatising is an understatement.
I don’t blame them; they didn’t know any better.
If I could talk to my 10-year-old self now, I’d say, ‘Congratulations! Welcome to the world of womanhood. You’re going to be just fine. This is the start of your journey to understanding your body. Don’t be ashamed; it’s time to celebrate.’
My Teenage Years:
After regular periods for six months, my cycle became erratic for over two years, accompanied by teenage acne.
My mum took me to the GP, who recommended a gynaecologist.
Fortunately, one of my high school friends’ mums was a gynaecologist.
At 13, she suggested that taking the pill would help control my acne and regularise my periods.
With little knowledge of alternatives, I embarked on this journey, trying six different pills due to side effects.
In hindsight, it’s a glaring red flag, but at the time, I was told it was normal and might take time to find the right one.
In my early twenties, I found one that suited me better, everything was under control, and I felt safe when my first sexual experiences began.
From 20 to 30:
All was well between my early twenties and early thirties.
I had two long-term relationships, and both were content with me being on the pill.
It was the only life I knew. No acne, regular ‘periods,’ and stable weight. PMS was the only hiccup, but nothing too severe.
However, in my late twenties, after 15 years on the pill, I started feeling like my body couldn’t handle the hormones any longer.
My then-boyfriend discouraged me from stopping, considering it too inconvenient and annoying. It makes me cringe just thinking about it.
My body was screaming at me, but it took a couple more months before I finally embraced a new journey.
The Beginning of the Issue:
Now, in my early thirties, after a breakup, I decided to stop taking the pill.
Little did I know what lay ahead.
For the first six months, everything seemed fine.
My cycle was regular, with a length between 28 and 30 days. I thought I was in the clear.
However, things slowly changed. My cycle lengthened, and each month became increasingly challenging.
I was so disconnected from my body that I couldn’t discern what was normal anymore.
I was grappling with hormonal imbalances, a term I’d never heard before. It eventually led me through a period of what I’d describe as depression.
I don’t want to scare you as you read this blog. Firstly, not everyone goes through what I did after stopping the pill. Secondly, my experience took a downturn because I had no idea what was happening.
My Journey Toward Connection:
I use the word ‘connection’ instead of ‘reconnection’ because I’ve realised that I never truly understood how my body worked until these last few years.
The turning point occurred during Christmas 2021 when I saw a picture of myself on the Gold Coast with friends. I didn’t recognise myself, having gained significant weight, looking inflamed, and feeling completely out of balance.
It was a harsh awakening. Since that moment, I’ve been on a journey of self-discovery, focusing on understanding my body, my cycle, and returning to my natural rhythm.
You know, what I’ve come to realise is that for a long time, I liked the idea of being off the pill, but I wasn’t fully prepared for the day-to-day effort required to live a balanced and harmonious life with my body.
As women, we have a natural cycle based on our hormonal rhythm. Unfortunately, no one told me that I wasn’t meant to feel the same every day.
No one explained the four phases of our cycle, which would affect how I felt.
No one taught me that I could have a partner and still feel safe having sex by tracking my cycle.
After nearly four years on this journey, I feel so much more in tune with my body. I don’t even need an app to check my cycle; I know which phase I’m in.
The most significant change for me was adapting my life around my natural rhythm rather than trying to fit my cycle into my busy life.
I’ve written an article on self-care if you want more information.
After years of self-improvement and witnessing how it transformed my life, I’ve worked more closely with my clients to help them align with their own rhythms and bodies.
This is part of why I created an ebook about self-care and our hormonal cycle.
Through this E-book, I share my journey with my hormonal issues, what I did, what I do now, my self-care practices, and how I manage my life according to my cycle.
If you resonate with my story and would like to know more about the E-book, send me an email at email@example.com, and please leave a comment below. I’ll get back to you.